Woot! Woot! For all the caregivers!

When we first met and even before I met him, I knew from a mutual friend that he had been battling cancer. And it wasn't so much that I was looking for a relationship as another friend in my life and he turned out to be my best friend. I guess when you fall for someone's weaknesses and flaws too, you know that you are in way over your head. And because the man is a sweetheart,it's hard to mind just how engulfing it all is. I can't say that it isn't an honor to be there for my best friend as they struggle with a terminal illness and I struggle with finding enough sleep. And we bump heads a bit over doing things that are good for him and he is THE most stubborn of human beings. And then I love him anyway , after a small break and hope that it all adds up to being a good guy in the vast scheme of things.There's guidance that's available but one size doesn't fit all and knowing one's truth, just sitting there quietly and then making up one's mind to articulate my concerns and go cowgirl over the battles I have picked to spend my limited amount of energy on. If you have ever been there , maybe this sounds familiar. Anyway, today, I got some extra sleep after doing a handful of chores. Because Ollie is having a hard time being hungry enough to eat that steak that he's been asking for I filled up the house with the smell of braised onions and cooked the steak on a bed of them. Sorry , didn't think to take a pic and most of it is gone now. A small victory every time he eats and drinks and hate to say it but with the meds he's on does his doody in the smallest room in the house. It's been a wild ride and I learned alot even though at first all the things that people were saying sounded just like blah, blah, blah the cancer is back. Rock bottom line, if you ever get cancer , drink or eat a lot of fluids, as much if not more then they tell you to like your life depends on it  cause it most definately does and when they tell you to avoid caffiene, that's no lie!